I’m in a Slump

It’s been a while since my last post when I wrote about how I was in a running slump back in January.

Thankfully, I snapped out of it enough to run the LA Marathon in February and the OC Half Marathon a couple of weeks ago.  One of these days I’ll get around to writing those race recaps.

Now, the slump I’m in is more than just a running slump… it feels like a life slump.

In social media, things look like everything’s going great.

But it’s not.

I don’t feel like I’m doing anything right.

I’m feeling like a crappy husband, a crappy father, a crappy friend…

I haven’t been working out or running. I’ve become more of a junk food vegan and I’ve been eating out a lot.

I’m going through the motions at work and I’m counting the days until the summer vacation.

My house  is a mess. My garage is a disaster. My laundry is undone… and when it does get done I don’t put it away. It ends up on a pile on my bed that later ends up on the floor.

After feeling like I was doing better with my autoimmune disease, I’m starting to get more frequent allergic reactions again.

I am worn. I am damaged goods.

I know I’m not alone… but I feel like I am.

I have a difficult time articulating how I feel verbally… when I try to pray or think that I can talk to someone.

I guess this is how I vent. This is my outlet.

I’m just keeping it real.

 

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6 thoughts on “I’m in a Slump

  1. I often feel the same way! We try our best to put on a good front for our “audience”, but then there’s our “authentic” self. Just know that you’re most definitely not alone. We all have our slumps. I’m sure your wife and kids adore you! Maybe check out a new recipe book to get excited to cook more at home? My hubby has been reading a new book called “Eat Dirt”. Maybe check out that book. 😄

  2. I hear you friend! I’ve been in a slump off and on for a year, lol. Just not getting traction. I know running, exercising, being at my Happy weight, etc helps change my perspective, but am I doing it…

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